change?

Listening to: The Way She Dances, Everybody is a Star, Locked Away(new shit I just heard browsing youtube, shit is sick!)- N*E*R*D

"close your eyes, hold my hand, concentration; no destination, just dance on constellations..."

Haven't been here for a while, mainly because I chose to keep a journal and realized that no one will/would be interested in my life, but myself and those close to me. Sitting down, listening to N*E*R*D and Pharrell always gets me thinking, always gets me in a good mood, makes me miss my zen. Maybe I'm predisposed to like Pharrell and N*E*R*D, but, they just know how to make good music and I appreciate it by listening to them excessively. In hindsight, I mentioned them because they got me to type this blog, that I've been procrastinating to type for a while.

Some updates...I've been going to the gym for about a month now, idk if there's any results, but I bought a shirt from uniqlo around 2 months ago. Now I tried it on when I got home and it was a little clingy, but I wore it anyways. After the 2nd time I wore it, I chose to retire the shirt, save it for another day. That day was yesterday, so I expected the same clingy shirt, but lo and behold! if fit nicely on my person, I couldnt believe it! I feel kinda good, but I'm not trying to get my hopes up, I plan to use my gym membership until I can't...which is my 18th birthday haha...oh well, back to the gym tomorrow :]

My summer has been ALRIGHT, no job, no internship, you can find me home during the day and out at night. I can't wait for school to start, I'm eager to learn and see everyone I miss.

With all that said, goodbye, for now, idk when ill be back, but I will be back.

Bob Ross taught you how to paint.

[Originally written on 3/31/09]

So, aside from me posting alot of pix on my blog, I would actually like to write out what's been going on. I'm very tempted to add pictures, but I'll let your imagination do the work for whosoever reads this.

Rose has basically been my friend since 7th grade. We only talked for a few in high school, but we never really connected like now in the 11th grade. Its kinda sad how it took us 4 years to be cool around each other and shit, but its all good. She's hella funny, stylish, great, and well-rounded chick. Here's to 4 years, Rose. LULZ.couldn't resit >_<

~Life's been going well you can say :\ Its been about a month since I broke up with this guy. It hasn't affected me because I somewhat force myself not to have emotional attachments to guys. I learn from other people in relationships around me and I just build my own thoughts and shit and blah blah... The only thing this relationship left me with is a yearning for another one -_- Not to get all amorous and shit, but relationships are nice. They're great to be in if the person treats you right, and completes you. Sureeeeee, there's hooking up, but that just leaves you stupefied. Speaking of, I haven't got any in about....a month. fml. Either I can wait for a guy to be ready for a relationship, or I'll just revert to my old ways and look for dick. hahahahahahaa.



CONT. 4/7/09
~~ I donated blood todayyyyyy! Yay me for helping out people. It was my second time though. I plan to donate till I cant no' mo'~~




~My dad left yesterday[3/30/09] :[ FOREVER! Nah, lulz, he went to Belize for the Easter;;; Another admission: I will ALWAYS miss my parents when they go away for a long period of time. Like my mother went to Belize in September and again in January to bury my grandmother. Both times she left, I felt sad because its my mom I'm with the most when she's home. I miss my dad too because he's the one who greets me everyday when I come home from school. Without both of them, my house is a very empty home. It doesn't help that my sister goes to college in Albany. I'm just alone in the house with nada much to do. But it's ok, I'll bounce back, just like I always do.





~~OH YEAH, there's this bitch ass nigga named Christopher Olveira that I know, andddddd so I thought it would be nice to mention him in my blog andddd he's addicted to sex like no lie andddd he got like oh dee naked pics of bitches with long ass nipples on his iTouch lmaooo anddddddd he bangs a different girl like everydayyyy. Haha he's on some g shittt. ([8/3/09] silly request fufilled by me..)

murdah shiii rote.

WELL, life's been good. I broke up with my deadbeat, non-caring boyfriend about 2 weeks ago. Def. not affected by it, so get at me! kelGUNZ is still the same, so don't worry your little heads out there, for those who care about me. I've been addicted to adding pix to my blog posts lately, OH WELL. Weekends are good, been spending them with the real crew[bryce, chanel, and others]. They always come through with a good time. CHANEL ALFEE, you're the sister I wish I had, and BRYCE JAMEL, you're the brother I never had. LMAO bryce camel hehehe.

Been eating at restaurants lately; I love it though, because I never go to restaurants; family never had a legit reason for us to eat out except for vacation -_- Favorite restaurants are Vanessa's Dumplings and Nori. Both have some good, cheap ___________(insert meat here) teriyaki. Friday Angelica, Jose, Tenzin, Rinchen, Raul, and I went to have Korean BBQ, ish was good, def gotta do it more. Then we went to Karaoke and sang our hearts out, well I know I did. If you can't tell by this post, I've had a very happy couple of weeks. May be tired and sad a few days, but who isn't???


WEEE pic time.






I keeps it gully.

and today was a good day.

OH dEE fun today.
got 2 pairs of dunks and nice sweaters!
beacon's closet and thrift shops rule!
i ♥ chanel, tyrone, and bryce.


chanel trying to help me with something.


tryone with a TMNT hat.


bryce SPLASH'N with the bapesta bag and G-Star grandma sweater.


new sweater and dunks; thanks for the dunks tyrone! :]

fun ass dayyy. angelica was missing though. next time!


OH YEAH LMFAOAOAOAOAOALMAOAOAMALAWLSZLULZLMFAOOO
in my hood, there was a cardboard ramp. so tyrone and i decide to run up it so it can break through. i turn out fine, but tyrone, LMFAOSMFHLMAOAMLAMAMLLAMaiskjsfweghr38towsajbk trips, and falls on the the space between the street and sidewalk. he ends up with his left elbow in dirty water, dirty knees, LMAO and chinese construction workers laughing their asses off too. good day man, good fucking day.

I got the big unstoppable.

yea I need to network.
reason being, I need more friends from different places.
where I grew up, there is no one my age; can't call someone up and chill spontaneously.
I believe with my beautiful smile and nice personality it can work.
not much for a 16 year old black to do in williamsburg; the hippest part of brooklyn there is. blehh,

time to networkkkkk.
:]

a picture is worth a 1000 words.

old ass pic ^^^^^ like old ass

OH just shoot me already.

-I have no inspiration to write.


-I failed 2 classes, french and math, which I've been failing since 10th grade>>average is 73.83%


-My boyfriend is a heartless fuck, that doesn't give a fuck about my feelings.


-My hair's falling out, my eyebrows have too much hair ⌐_⌐


-I hate waking up early.


-Tomorrow's a new day, new semester, new marking period, new beginnings, new thoughts.



Just fucking kill me.