Listening to: The Way She Dances, Everybody is a Star, Locked Away(new shit I just heard browsing youtube, shit is sick!)- N*E*R*D
"close your eyes, hold my hand, concentration; no destination, just dance on constellations..."
Haven't been here for a while, mainly because I chose to keep a journal and realized that no one will/would be interested in my life, but myself and those close to me. Sitting down, listening to N*E*R*D and Pharrell always gets me thinking, always gets me in a good mood, makes me miss my zen. Maybe I'm predisposed to like Pharrell and N*E*R*D, but, they just know how to make good music and I appreciate it by listening to them excessively. In hindsight, I mentioned them because they got me to type this blog, that I've been procrastinating to type for a while.
Some updates...I've been going to the gym for about a month now, idk if there's any results, but I bought a shirt from uniqlo around 2 months ago. Now I tried it on when I got home and it was a little clingy, but I wore it anyways. After the 2nd time I wore it, I chose to retire the shirt, save it for another day. That day was yesterday, so I expected the same clingy shirt, but lo and behold! if fit nicely on my person, I couldnt believe it! I feel kinda good, but I'm not trying to get my hopes up, I plan to use my gym membership until I can't...which is my 18th birthday haha...oh well, back to the gym tomorrow :]
My summer has been ALRIGHT, no job, no internship, you can find me home during the day and out at night. I can't wait for school to start, I'm eager to learn and see everyone I miss.
With all that said, goodbye, for now, idk when ill be back, but I will be back.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Bob Ross taught you how to paint.
[Originally written on 3/31/09]
So, aside from me posting alot of pix on my blog, I would actually like to write out what's been going on. I'm very tempted to add pictures, but I'll let your imagination do the work for whosoever reads this.
Rose has basically been my friend since 7th grade. We only talked for a few in high school, but we never really connected like now in the 11th grade. Its kinda sad how it took us 4 years to be cool around each other and shit, but its all good. She's hella funny, stylish, great, and well-rounded chick. Here's to 4 years, Rose. LULZ.
couldn't resit >_<
~Life's been going well you can say :\ Its been about a month since I broke up with this guy. It hasn't affected me because I somewhat force myself not to have emotional attachments to guys. I learn from other people in relationships around me and I just build my own thoughts and shit and blah blah... The only thing this relationship left me with is a yearning for another one -_- Not to get all amorous and shit, but relationships are nice. They're great to be in if the person treats you right, and completes you. Sureeeeee, there's hooking up, but that just leaves you stupefied. Speaking of, I haven't got any in about....a month. fml. Either I can wait for a guy to be ready for a relationship, or I'll just revert to my old ways and look for dick. hahahahahahaa.
CONT. 4/7/09
~~ I donated blood todayyyyyy! Yay me for helping out people. It was my second time though. I plan to donate till I cant no' mo'~~
~My dad left yesterday[3/30/09] :[ FOREVER! Nah, lulz, he went to Belize for the Easter;;; Another admission: I will ALWAYS miss my parents when they go away for a long period of time. Like my mother went to Belize in September and again in January to bury my grandmother. Both times she left, I felt sad because its my mom I'm with the most when she's home. I miss my dad too because he's the one who greets me everyday when I come home from school. Without both of them, my house is a very empty home. It doesn't help that my sister goes to college in Albany. I'm just alone in the house with nada much to do. But it's ok, I'll bounce back, just like I always do.
~~OH YEAH, there's this bitch ass nigga named Christopher Olveira that I know, andddddd so I thought it would be nice to mention him in my blog andddd he's addicted to sex like no lie andddd he got like oh dee naked pics of bitches with long ass nipples on his iTouch lmaooo anddddddd he bangs a different girl like everydayyyy. Haha he's on some g shittt. ([8/3/09] silly request fufilled by me..)
So, aside from me posting alot of pix on my blog, I would actually like to write out what's been going on. I'm very tempted to add pictures, but I'll let your imagination do the work for whosoever reads this.
Rose has basically been my friend since 7th grade. We only talked for a few in high school, but we never really connected like now in the 11th grade. Its kinda sad how it took us 4 years to be cool around each other and shit, but its all good. She's hella funny, stylish, great, and well-rounded chick. Here's to 4 years, Rose. LULZ.
couldn't resit >_<~Life's been going well you can say :\ Its been about a month since I broke up with this guy. It hasn't affected me because I somewhat force myself not to have emotional attachments to guys. I learn from other people in relationships around me and I just build my own thoughts and shit and blah blah... The only thing this relationship left me with is a yearning for another one -_- Not to get all amorous and shit, but relationships are nice. They're great to be in if the person treats you right, and completes you. Sureeeeee, there's hooking up, but that just leaves you stupefied. Speaking of, I haven't got any in about....a month. fml. Either I can wait for a guy to be ready for a relationship, or I'll just revert to my old ways and look for dick. hahahahahahaa.
CONT. 4/7/09
~~ I donated blood todayyyyyy! Yay me for helping out people. It was my second time though. I plan to donate till I cant no' mo'~~
~My dad left yesterday[3/30/09] :[ FOREVER! Nah, lulz, he went to Belize for the Easter;;; Another admission: I will ALWAYS miss my parents when they go away for a long period of time. Like my mother went to Belize in September and again in January to bury my grandmother. Both times she left, I felt sad because its my mom I'm with the most when she's home. I miss my dad too because he's the one who greets me everyday when I come home from school. Without both of them, my house is a very empty home. It doesn't help that my sister goes to college in Albany. I'm just alone in the house with nada much to do. But it's ok, I'll bounce back, just like I always do.
~~OH YEAH, there's this bitch ass nigga named Christopher Olveira that I know, andddddd so I thought it would be nice to mention him in my blog andddd he's addicted to sex like no lie andddd he got like oh dee naked pics of bitches with long ass nipples on his iTouch lmaooo anddddddd he bangs a different girl like everydayyyy. Haha he's on some g shittt. ([8/3/09] silly request fufilled by me..)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
murdah shiii rote.
WELL, life's been good. I broke up with my deadbeat, non-caring boyfriend about 2 weeks ago. Def. not affected by it, so get at me! kelGUNZ is still the same, so don't worry your little heads out there, for those who care about me. I've been addicted to adding pix to my blog posts lately, OH WELL. Weekends are good, been spending them with the real crew[bryce, chanel, and others]. They always come through with a good time. CHANEL ALFEE, you're the sister I wish I had, and BRYCE JAMEL, you're the brother I never had. LMAO bryce camel hehehe.
Been eating at restaurants lately; I love it though, because I never go to restaurants; family never had a legit reason for us to eat out except for vacation -_- Favorite restaurants are Vanessa's Dumplings and Nori. Both have some good, cheap ___________(insert meat here) teriyaki. Friday Angelica, Jose, Tenzin, Rinchen, Raul, and I went to have Korean BBQ, ish was good, def gotta do it more. Then we went to Karaoke and sang our hearts out, well I know I did. If you can't tell by this post, I've had a very happy couple of weeks. May be tired and sad a few days, but who isn't???
WEEE pic time.
I keeps it gully.
Been eating at restaurants lately; I love it though, because I never go to restaurants; family never had a legit reason for us to eat out except for vacation -_- Favorite restaurants are Vanessa's Dumplings and Nori. Both have some good, cheap ___________(insert meat here) teriyaki. Friday Angelica, Jose, Tenzin, Rinchen, Raul, and I went to have Korean BBQ, ish was good, def gotta do it more. Then we went to Karaoke and sang our hearts out, well I know I did. If you can't tell by this post, I've had a very happy couple of weeks. May be tired and sad a few days, but who isn't???
WEEE pic time.
I keeps it gully.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
and today was a good day.
OH dEE fun today.
got 2 pairs of dunks and nice sweaters!
beacon's closet and thrift shops rule!
i ♥ chanel, tyrone, and bryce.
chanel trying to help me with something.
tryone with a TMNT hat.
bryce SPLASH'N with the bapesta bag and G-Star grandma sweater.
new sweater and dunks; thanks for the dunks tyrone! :]
fun ass dayyy. angelica was missing though. next time!
OH YEAH LMFAOAOAOAOAOALMAOAOAMALAWLSZLULZLMFAOOO
in my hood, there was a cardboard ramp. so tyrone and i decide to run up it so it can break through. i turn out fine, but tyrone, LMFAOSMFHLMAOAMLAMAMLLAMaiskjsfweghr38towsajbk trips, and falls on the the space between the street and sidewalk. he ends up with his left elbow in dirty water, dirty knees, LMAO and chinese construction workers laughing their asses off too. good day man, good fucking day.
got 2 pairs of dunks and nice sweaters!
beacon's closet and thrift shops rule!
i ♥ chanel, tyrone, and bryce.
chanel trying to help me with something.
tryone with a TMNT hat.
bryce SPLASH'N with the bapesta bag and G-Star grandma sweater.
new sweater and dunks; thanks for the dunks tyrone! :]
fun ass dayyy. angelica was missing though. next time!
OH YEAH LMFAOAOAOAOAOALMAOAOAMALAWLSZLULZLMFAOOO
in my hood, there was a cardboard ramp. so tyrone and i decide to run up it so it can break through. i turn out fine, but tyrone, LMFAOSMFHLMAOAMLAMAMLLAMaiskjsfweghr38towsajbk trips, and falls on the the space between the street and sidewalk. he ends up with his left elbow in dirty water, dirty knees, LMAO and chinese construction workers laughing their asses off too. good day man, good fucking day.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I got the big unstoppable.
yea I need to network.
reason being, I need more friends from different places.
where I grew up, there is no one my age; can't call someone up and chill spontaneously.
I believe with my beautiful smile and nice personality it can work.
not much for a 16 year old black to do in williamsburg; the hippest part of brooklyn there is. blehh,
time to networkkkkk.
:]
reason being, I need more friends from different places.
where I grew up, there is no one my age; can't call someone up and chill spontaneously.
I believe with my beautiful smile and nice personality it can work.
not much for a 16 year old black to do in williamsburg; the hippest part of brooklyn there is. blehh,
time to networkkkkk.
:]
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
OH just shoot me already.
-I have no inspiration to write.
-I failed 2 classes, french and math, which I've been failing since 10th grade>>average is 73.83%
-My boyfriend is a heartless fuck, that doesn't give a fuck about my feelings.
-My hair's falling out, my eyebrows have too much hair ⌐_⌐
-I hate waking up early.
-Tomorrow's a new day, new semester, new marking period, new beginnings, new thoughts.
Just fucking kill me.
-I failed 2 classes, french and math, which I've been failing since 10th grade>>average is 73.83%
-My boyfriend is a heartless fuck, that doesn't give a fuck about my feelings.
-My hair's falling out, my eyebrows have too much hair ⌐_⌐
-I hate waking up early.
-Tomorrow's a new day, new semester, new marking period, new beginnings, new thoughts.
Just fucking kill me.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Human Nature
I've come to realize...I'm human.
Humans have emotions and feelings. I was never one to cry, but recently I've been basically fucked up emotionally. Today I was crying for like 10 mins out of nowhere; totally not me. Maybe its my grandma, maybe its because I miss my mom, maybe its my grades, maybe its my relationship with people, maybe its my boyfriend..., but whatever it is, if not all, is messing with me. I need time alone to assess myself. I wanna share it someone, but I don't think they would understand me to the fullest, so I'll just blog it... Is it me or am I giving out emo posts...yikes!
Spare my feelings...through all these trials and tribulations.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
the tale of two thoughts
Idk guys I'm really feeling this guy. But I'm skeptical. I always fall for the ones who's style/character i hate the most. Dudes 18, working[that's good], not that tall[hate average height guys], from harlem[WOW, but he hates harlem niggas]...LOL Haitian... but regardless, he's growing on me, bout to go out with him... ;D
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On a heavier note, I wish I could have gone to Belize with my mom to go bury my grandmother, but my passport is expired ⌐_⌐. In a sense, I feel that it was a good thing for my grandma to pass. She couldn't walk ever since I seen her 5 years ago. And it hurt me to see her lying in her bed all day cuz she couldn't walk. Thinking about it is making me tear. God bless Jennifer Miranda, my mother. She took time off about twice a year to go take care of my grandmother. Her sister too, Nelsia Sebastian. Out of the 4 other sisters my mother has, only her and my aunt took the time out to take care of my grandmother. How dare they not care about their own mother! Like on some real shit, how the fuck can you not take the time out to visit your sick mother, your dying mother, the lady that gave you life? Aside all the bullshit. I know for a fact, aside all the problems that could occur during my life with my mother, my sister and I would do anything for her.
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It makes it damn side worse to know that I will never ever see my grandmother again; only at her grave. I miss Belize, my family, my house near the beach, going swimming everyday, the carefree attitude there, damn I needa visit. I actually wanna go to college there, but its in the City, and I don't think I know anyone in the city.
I always have a feeling of not belonging. Everytime I used to go see my family, I felt left out. Everyone speaking creole and ish and me with my American accent, they make fun of me, and tease me for not eating our national dish. SORRY! shit tastes nasty, got fish in it, I hate cooked fish. But now I think is the right time to go; I'm 16, mad parties going on, legal drinking age is 18 there....I'm set.
Now that my grandma is gone, I feel that I don't have a place there anymore.
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On a heavier note, I wish I could have gone to Belize with my mom to go bury my grandmother, but my passport is expired ⌐_⌐. In a sense, I feel that it was a good thing for my grandma to pass. She couldn't walk ever since I seen her 5 years ago. And it hurt me to see her lying in her bed all day cuz she couldn't walk. Thinking about it is making me tear. God bless Jennifer Miranda, my mother. She took time off about twice a year to go take care of my grandmother. Her sister too, Nelsia Sebastian. Out of the 4 other sisters my mother has, only her and my aunt took the time out to take care of my grandmother. How dare they not care about their own mother! Like on some real shit, how the fuck can you not take the time out to visit your sick mother, your dying mother, the lady that gave you life? Aside all the bullshit. I know for a fact, aside all the problems that could occur during my life with my mother, my sister and I would do anything for her.
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It makes it damn side worse to know that I will never ever see my grandmother again; only at her grave. I miss Belize, my family, my house near the beach, going swimming everyday, the carefree attitude there, damn I needa visit. I actually wanna go to college there, but its in the City, and I don't think I know anyone in the city.
I always have a feeling of not belonging. Everytime I used to go see my family, I felt left out. Everyone speaking creole and ish and me with my American accent, they make fun of me, and tease me for not eating our national dish. SORRY! shit tastes nasty, got fish in it, I hate cooked fish. But now I think is the right time to go; I'm 16, mad parties going on, legal drinking age is 18 there....I'm set.
Now that my grandma is gone, I feel that I don't have a place there anymore.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Thursday, January 8, 2009
call me a hater idc.
"bryce" (10:01:01 PM) : Lmfao I'm lookin at this kids myspace and he has a album 4 everyshirt he has
keLskiiwasheRe (10:01:11 PM) : hypebeast?
"bryce" (10:01:24 PM) : They say like naughty sum lite
"bryce" (10:01:29 PM) : Nah harlem kid
keLskiiwasheRe (10:01:34 PM) : LORDDDD
"bryce" (10:01:36 PM) : Rich yung sumthin lite
keLskiiwasheRe (10:01:44 PM) : i hate harlem ppl.
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(10:04:14 PM) : i hate meaningless albums
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Call me a haterrrr idc. Most Harlem people annoy me. They come all arrogant and cocky for no reason. And if you live in NYC you can tell a harlem nigga apart from most.
SYMPTOMS OF HARLEMITIS
1. American Eagle or Aeropostale shirts.
2. Marmots or merm coats. Oh and marmot hiking boots. WTF are you hiking in NYC??
3. TRUE RELIGION, Antiks, Seven, Levis and American Eagle STRAIGHT LEG or SKINNY Jeans.
4. ACG nike boots, Nike shocks, and Colorful footwear.
5. Colorful fitteds worn half way across the head.
6. Cargo pants, of course!
7. Flashy...with everything.
8. Get Light around me, get shot.
LOL don't get me wrong though, I like some harlem people. So if I know you, and you know me, and you're from harlem. ily!
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keLskiiwasheRe (10:02:26 PM) : i was class having the bklyn harlem convo
keLskiiwasheRe (10:02:30 PM) : and this chick was like
keLskiiwasheRe (10:02:43 PM) : "HARLEM AINT NOTHING, ITS JUST 4 BLOCKS AND A CORNER STORE"
keLskiiwasheRe (10:02:47 PM) : lmaoamalmaaoaoaoao
"bryce" (10:03:05 PM) : Lmfaooo thas funny
"bryce" (10:03:46 PM) : Lmfao rhis nigga got a random album called easter pics
keLskiiwasheRe (10:04:10 PM) : the fuckkkk
keLskiiwasheRe________________
"bryce" (10:04:40 PM) : U kno wat I hate pics that r od edited
"bryce" (10:04:49 PM) : Like yea we flyyy
"bryce" (10:04:55 PM) : A.T.G
"bryce" (10:05:00 PM) : U kno I get money!
"bryce" (10:05:05 PM) : $$
"bryce" (10:05:11 PM) : Ughhh
keLskiiwasheRe (10:05:44 PM) : LMAOo
keLskiiwasheRe (10:05:47 PM) : for real
keLskiiwasheRe (10:05:52 PM) : i hate photoshop pics too
"bryce" (10:06:02 PM) : Yeaaaa
"bryce" (10:06:24 PM) : Lmfao here's another 1
"bryce" (10:06:32 PM) : YABOYJAY
"bryce" (10:06:38 PM) : J-HYPE
keLskiiwasheRe (10:06:43 PM) : dude link me
"bryce" (10:06:44 PM) : FLOW SO WAVY
keLskiiwasheRe (10:06:47 PM) : LMAOAOAOAOoaoa
keLskiiwasheRe (10:06:52 PM) : i hate tht
_____________Call me a haterrrr idc. Most Harlem people annoy me. They come all arrogant and cocky for no reason. And if you live in NYC you can tell a harlem nigga apart from most.
SYMPTOMS OF HARLEMITIS
1. American Eagle or Aeropostale shirts.
2. Marmots or merm coats. Oh and marmot hiking boots. WTF are you hiking in NYC??
3. TRUE RELIGION, Antiks, Seven, Levis and American Eagle STRAIGHT LEG or SKINNY Jeans.
4. ACG nike boots, Nike shocks, and Colorful footwear.
5. Colorful fitteds worn half way across the head.
6. Cargo pants, of course!
7. Flashy...with everything.
8. Get Light around me, get shot.
LOL don't get me wrong though, I like some harlem people. So if I know you, and you know me, and you're from harlem. ily!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
origins of Pharrell love♥
Hello blog world! I've come to blog about my love for Pharrell Williams and others...if anyone cares.
Origins:I know Pharrell had hits before 2003, but that was when Frontin' came out. Now I remember watching MTV with my sister. We just came home from school, and I was in the 6th grade. BOOM! The music hit my ears, the visual hit my eyes; Who was this beautiful man with a beatiful voice, singing over this synthesized beat of which my ears never heard before?? Good God, I was taken in by catchy ass lyrics..."I was just frontin', you know I want you babe"... As of then, he was just a new artist; I didn't know he was growing on me just yet.
About 3 years ago:The main music genre I listened to was hip-hop, rap, r&b, main negro music haha. Well, I attempted to stay posted on songs that Pharrell sang, or was featured in, but I was lazy. Then I graduate middle school, go into high school...I'm a freshman, blah, everyone hates freshmen...Then I get into sophomore year.
Present:I would prefer to call it the high school year of self realization. Of course, I realize that I've been missing out on Pharrell. What really brought me back to him was his sexyness; so I thought I would look into his music as well. BANG! In My Mind was sweeeeeet, I sweared to stay on that, then I was like, wait, Pharrell has a band, right... I started to look into N*E*R*D. EVEN BETTER! Not necessarily hip-hop, but more like funk rap or funk rock, I didn't care, shit was hot!
During the summer I decided to stop listening to rap. Specifically to the songs rapping about money, bitches, cars, "the struggle"...so on and so forth. I still listen to rap, but from rappers like Lupe, Pharrell, Kanye, and Common; basically the ones that rap or sing about different secular dramas. Lupe is real!! As of now my favorite song is "And he gets the girl" by him. I know I may be late on that, but that ish is beautiful. Its well put together, and it doesn't hurt that its over the "Maybe" beat from N*E*R*D. The sound that Pharrell and Kanye, and others I listen to emit; like their lyrics and beats rape my ears, and make them their bitch. That's how good they sound to me! I hate anyone who inturupts me when listening to MY "music gods". Fuck off till the song is done. That's my word.
Few favorite songs are:Maybe, Provider, Baby[both versions], Yeah You**, Big White Spaceship, Frontin', Run to the Sun**, The Way She Dances**, Breakout, Fly or Die, Jump**, roughly all of N*E*R*D's albums and Pharrell songs. Right now, my music library is reading 44 N*E*R*D songs, and 88 songs with Pharrell in it, that's 132. I'm trying to hit 150 by Feb. and 200 by end of 09, I hope...I rest my case.
No one Ever Really Dies
Origins:I know Pharrell had hits before 2003, but that was when Frontin' came out. Now I remember watching MTV with my sister. We just came home from school, and I was in the 6th grade. BOOM! The music hit my ears, the visual hit my eyes; Who was this beautiful man with a beatiful voice, singing over this synthesized beat of which my ears never heard before?? Good God, I was taken in by catchy ass lyrics..."I was just frontin', you know I want you babe"... As of then, he was just a new artist; I didn't know he was growing on me just yet.
About 3 years ago:The main music genre I listened to was hip-hop, rap, r&b, main negro music haha. Well, I attempted to stay posted on songs that Pharrell sang, or was featured in, but I was lazy. Then I graduate middle school, go into high school...I'm a freshman, blah, everyone hates freshmen...Then I get into sophomore year.
Present:I would prefer to call it the high school year of self realization. Of course, I realize that I've been missing out on Pharrell. What really brought me back to him was his sexyness; so I thought I would look into his music as well. BANG! In My Mind was sweeeeeet, I sweared to stay on that, then I was like, wait, Pharrell has a band, right... I started to look into N*E*R*D. EVEN BETTER! Not necessarily hip-hop, but more like funk rap or funk rock, I didn't care, shit was hot!
During the summer I decided to stop listening to rap. Specifically to the songs rapping about money, bitches, cars, "the struggle"...so on and so forth. I still listen to rap, but from rappers like Lupe, Pharrell, Kanye, and Common; basically the ones that rap or sing about different secular dramas. Lupe is real!! As of now my favorite song is "And he gets the girl" by him. I know I may be late on that, but that ish is beautiful. Its well put together, and it doesn't hurt that its over the "Maybe" beat from N*E*R*D. The sound that Pharrell and Kanye, and others I listen to emit; like their lyrics and beats rape my ears, and make them their bitch. That's how good they sound to me! I hate anyone who inturupts me when listening to MY "music gods". Fuck off till the song is done. That's my word.
Few favorite songs are:Maybe, Provider, Baby[both versions], Yeah You**, Big White Spaceship, Frontin', Run to the Sun**, The Way She Dances**, Breakout, Fly or Die, Jump**, roughly all of N*E*R*D's albums and Pharrell songs. Right now, my music library is reading 44 N*E*R*D songs, and 88 songs with Pharrell in it, that's 132. I'm trying to hit 150 by Feb. and 200 by end of 09, I hope...I rest my case.
No one Ever Really Dies
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